"Imagination is the beginning of creation. You imagine what you desire; you will what you imagine;
and at last you create what you will."
--George Bernard Shaw
Monday, April 22, 2013
"A sparrow falls by providence, and the evening sky is smeared indigo. I won’t repeat our darling word dusk, since breaking old habits is a new promise. Sometimes the heart locks, before it dangles, ready for releasing. Something in the amorphous shape the trees espouse at this time of day is a resistance to anything particular or complex, as if a more subtle variation were possible. A toning down of contrast makes the hour we named for us a kind of yielding. ‘We are something’, you say, and I try to believe. But even as I write, the sky’s streaks fade, the burls of cloud formations begin to disappear, obeying Newton’s third law that for every act in this universe there is an equal and opposite one. Today I walked the streets, observing what I’ve missed of late— a white magnolia in full bloom with delicately scented petals, chaste as Ophelia, among the topiary plants; a house in ruins becoming some ugly new development. And, of course, I thought of us—that hole we cut in the stillness of evening, when the heart is disposed to abandon the thought of never wanting this to stop. The heart is mute but cries out in protest: Be free, what are you afraid of? Advice I tested last night at the Opera Bar. I kissed the princely lips of madness: Hamlet himself, after the proscenium. Not yet drunk. His eyes, untamed, a little lost, perhaps. I trembled but he didn’t seem to mind, and I was glad, recalling a soliloquy which speaks of fate’s occasion being fickle, how the end is ever present, how the readiness is all. The harbour slapped softly, in Luna Park the Ferris wheel turned. At least every so often, it is good to tremble. And somehow the moment cured me of the incomplete metaphor of madness I had taken for myself. So moments change us, the evening bleeds and bruises. Words come to me as freely as a sparrow falls, unfastened by the sky."